Long time no blog.

I was sick last week.The doctor wasn 't quite sure what he was treating for.He sent me up for a dengue and malarial tests.It was blowing hot outside in Delhi.I was burning at 102 degrees,but ,by the time I reached the doctor,the temperature had shot up to 104 degrees.The doctor gave me an alternative ,get admitted to the hospital or he will adjust the treatment right away.

On Monday ,morning,I was feeling cold in my palm.I was just dabbling at the idea of going to work.My brother-in-law,had an early flight to catch at 7.00AM(I live with my sister and brother-in-law for the last 8 months after my employment).I just figured out ,that,it would be a terrible mistake to just go to my work place a rough 28KM from home.I nodded my head over everything my brother-in-law gave as instructions.The help maid was the first person to know that ,I was ill.By the time she cleaned the place and the utensils,my brother-in-law called.I told him to call my parents at Chennai(capital of a state in India called Tamil Nadu).
I just made sure atleast an emotional support could be possible.I called up my office to tell them ,I could not come.Still the manager was insisting that ,I come and explain everything to the backup engineer(I am an outsourced network administator).

The whole of Monday passed with the fever.The very next at 10.00Am ,my brother-in-law's office mate helped me with all the doctor and stuff.He even got me into their company's guest house.
I was on a viscous rice solution for 2 and half days.The guy at the guest house was even bored seeing me eat the same thing everyday.I just told him that I will be leaving the guesthouse on Friday,before that I had a good north-Indian meal minus the oil.

I felt weak when I reached my home.I had bread and jam for breakfast,slept for a while and started cooking for my lunch.I sure was tired and my legs couldn't keepup with the pace .I called up my manager and told him that I will get to the office on Monday.He asked me to come on saturday.Just imagine how merciless and less human when normal workers become managers.They could just make things easier for everybody,but,no they just want their work done.I told him that ,I was tired and weak to even go for field calls.

Even when your are not doing anything it is fun to just lie down in the sofa and sleep all day.

Big fat .............

Whenever ,I start writing these blogs under each heading,my mind turns in to a different mode.My other blog "my mistakes?!! " contains explicit crib.I start to crib about crib about everything and finally add that everything was my mistake.

Everytime,I open the "views" ,my mood changes to a different mode.I start writing about women.I start to scream in my mind " I am becoming a sex maniac".Wherever ,I go,people watch porn.So,I start watching too.Then ,every naked woman looks awful and boring.

In every post of my "views" ,I criticise a woman.I think ,I am becoming more of a male fanatic than a lover.

My mind has become a paradox.I will just explain it to you ,what it is.
When I look at a woman from a distance ,I imagine that this woman ,I am looking at to be a gorgeous and a perfect woman in every respect.But,when I get to one,my mind starts to dislike that lady.I never mentioned this to anybody because,anybody who hears this could say that,I am crazy.There is only perosn who knows about this ,my colleague Ajay.I told him about this and he said" your mind denies what you want."

I know that,I create my own fantasies and when these are not fulfilled,I start to dislike what I have.

Ajay is a strong guy,in the sense that,he can acknowledge reality.He knows the things he can't do and what he can.He dissects everything and presents real facts which sometimes are diturbing.These facts ,just deny you of dreaming.Realism,when presented the hard way restricts you from proceeding further into achieving your dreams.When hard realistic without any solutions are presented by most unsuccessful people becomes hard to digest.

I started to begin the quest of studying people and their reaction to situations as a way to go through people to achieve my own benefits.Now,when ,I am at the middle of my study,I have to study my own reactions.It just makes me feel that Iam a different person altogether.

Studying my psyche,I began as a boy,a fat boy,fat gay,then a slim gay and then again to a boy I really imagined was.This cycle left me to wonder whether ,really ,I am a male or just pretending to be a guy just for the sake of the society ,I was a part.I just prepared a theory ,that every male begins and transforms into accorrding to their own success and failures.A loser starts to think negatively about himself and has delusions about what he really is not.while a successful guy thinks everything positive about him,and even feels that everybody should feel positive about him.In the back of his mind he knows his weakness.

I am positive about mycareer,but,my career doesn't seem to move forward.There are two people who have a stagnant life.The lift operator and the security guard who have a stagnant career.They just eat ,drink and sleep.I don't want to be anything like them.I just want to be a mover and shaker .I want to make a difference in everybody 's life.

Girls are stupid.

Girls will be girls .And girls are stupid.Thats what you should believe.Its not that you should fanatically follow this rule about the stupidity of women.But,follow it as rule to just understand them better.Never try to be too harsh with them,please.If a tiger ,whale or anyother animal needs compassion ,so should a female get a little bit of kindness from the males.

When , you say that "All women are stupid,and those who are not stupid are not women", you will find a woman say that ,"there is a girl here".How stupid can a girl get?

At an young age all girls are nearly are the same as boys.When they reach the start of their puberty ,they start becoming stupid.Stupidity in women cannot be defined.If you are not a female you will just know that they are stupid.It is just that ,the cuteness of their stupidity which attracts me.

You got to give them the credit for their stupidity.They create a wide variety of stupid situations ,you think you had passed through this situations before.Wait! you are in for a trap,this time they give you an altogether a different situation with a variation of the earlier one.

They are like computer viruses,they get installed into your computer without your permission and stall your activity by holding onto your data.They get to your address book and mail themselves to all your contacts.
Women are like computer worms ,they come into your life undetected and keep replicating themselves until you cry out for space.
When you try to remove your virus(women)they take something of value along with them.

Sometimes,I feel that a stupidity of a woman gets more obvious when she gets married .That's when her husband gets to know about her more.There are more than her knowing her innate stupidity.

Its not that she is born stupid.It is that she grows without knowing her capabilities or the boundaries for being stupid.When a girl is born people bring her up in an environment in which she it is usual for her to act stupid and the men are the people who should rack their brains.This is the start,where a female loses
her analytical ability ,the ability to reason.
Females lose the ability to respond well under diverse of situations,because they are more in situations where they have the support of their family.
More or less,the males are more of losers.Every diverse stare strongly in their faces.Family members always feel that men when they are in wrong situations,it is always his responsibility to come up with something as a break through.
In this world ,it is just "Female stupidity Vs Male weakness".

Blame it on the girl.

Another period of my life has gone without posting anything .I was trying to prepare myself for an interview with Siemens(SISL) at an entry level.My preparation was pretty much unorganised.
I got very much excited and nervous about attending the interview that,I felt that such a large company would provide tough questions for an interview.
The interview was on Monday.I went through all of C,C++ and protocol suites.The whole of saturday and sunday was wasted on those subjects.I was very much confident on JAVA ,because this was very much my domain.

I didn't get a copy of my re'sume' and found that cyber cafes don't open at 9.00a.m every day.So,I found my b-in-law on the road ,went to his office and took a copy .
I boarded the bus and after walking for nearly 2KM found SISL in the interior of Gurgaon(should have called them for a landmark).The interview was at 10.30a.m.I entered SISL building and was called for an interview exactly at 10.30a.m. I thought ,companies in India shouldn't be that punctual.They should atleast follow the usual waiting game.I am pretty much accustomed to that protocol.

The people interviewing me were pretty much looked ike kids.The guy was floundering for questions and the gal looked somewhat odd.I had to write down most of the questions in order to understand what the guy was asking about and the gal distracted me for most of the time.I couldn't answer some questions which were quite basic to me.Oh!my god !this girl has large things ,jutting out of her very interiors.Thats it! It was her teeth that distracted me.
Well,she was supposed to ask me questions on database languages.But,I didn't write those in my CV.But ,she insisted on asking me something on databases.I told her ,i am very much ignorant about the databases ,except that I can just look on to the book to write the queries for a database.

I contacted the HR guy after 2 days .He told me the rejection of my candidature rather beautifully.It was like this "Your name has not featured in the short-listed candidates,but ,I will recommend your re'sume' to other companies".

There goes my first software interview after 2 years of waiting for one.